The week continues

My engine was supposed to be fixed by today but it was irreparable. I now have to get a different rebuilt engine which is a couple hundred dollars more and it also slows down the progress and it is lowering my optimism, I think. I know things will be okay but its so trying to have something worked for be in pieces in the driveway over a simple oversight and then not be able to fix it quickly even if you have money ready to be used for it. This along with the fact that I didn't do homework for a class (because I didn't see it and couldn't find it online) has lead to a frustrating week. Sleep and lack of a consistent amount will continue to drain me too, its made me a little behind in my classes. There are blessings but not many and for now the week has been poor and I have been unsuccessful in finding a remedy for the unhappiness. I get used to unhappiness but sometimes it can be overwhelming or annoying and I find if I work or try to have fun or relax, none of these help. Its not like unhappiness is bad all the time sometimes it is sobering and good. (On the flip side sometimes when I am happy it feels like something is wrong). I feel like crying but first off I can't when I want to and I don't really understand the exact reason to cry (I mean life is kinda okay right now, but overwhelming?), second, it would be pitiful because I would be crying for myself, and third it probably wouldn't be an emotional release like I would want it to be (it seems like crying would solve everything sometimes, you cry and then move on, but it isn't). Since this blog is something I haven't tried when I have been frustrated I thought I would test it out but it doesn't seem to be working. O well, goodnight and remember staying up late makes one more emotional and out of balance.